I found a secret to happiness.

It's my blog! hahahaha..

I found out that I can make myself smile again :)

Perhaps I just forgotten about *the secret*:

Secret no.1: Singing "I'm Yours" to myself when I'm feeling down in Poland. I'm Yours is my absolute all time fav. :)
Secret no.2: Practice loving-kindness. Like, wishing the stranger who just cursed me for stopping my feet to look around in Prague to be well and happy *with a smiley*. This works like a charm, try it ;) doing it, you really couldn't help to not feel angry at all.

Haha, I'm such a retard.

But at least, I'm a happy retard.

Staying calm and good.

Few days ago, I went for a meditation retreat for 2 days.

I returned with a refreshed mind, feeling such calmness and peacefulness that I could never have imagined. There's also this tint of silent joy in my heart. :)

I observed how relentless my mind truly was as every thoughts came and pass by the seconds.
Most of the time, worrisome thoughts kept coming to me; most of it are because of unfulfilled task.

So, I went home promising myself to fulfill every promises I made.

I prepared dinner for my family so they could enjoy it after returning from their trip.
Even if it had taken me almost 2 days, just grinding the fried grated coconut using pestle and mortar into paste, hunting down ingredients -for rendang, 3 dishes, homemade soy milk- then cooking and washing it all up, I felt very happy doing it all. :)
(And I cooked good rendang! Yummy black peppered mushroom in oyster sauce and broccoli with prawns, haha yummy!)

I'll be waking up to meditation daily from today onwards ;)